Tomorrow morning I am having lung surgery to remove a sizable, low-level tumor. In doing so, the surgeon will likely have to remove two-thirds of my right lung. As you might imagine, these past few weeks since the doctors discovered the tumor have been difficult for my family and I, but throughout most of the process, I’ve been at peace with my situation.
Since I can remember, I’ve had tremendous amounts of energy flowing through me, pushing me to create something that the world has never seen before. A strong creative energy like that can be amazingly positive if appropriately handled; if not handled properly, it can be destructive.
To me, the tumor’s development to the point where I need a major operation to have it removed symbolizes a period in my life where, for a number of reasons, I wasn’t prepared to handle that energy appropriately. This surgery is something that may have been avoided if I had taken the time and energy to fully investigate my illness at some point over the past few years when the symptoms associated with the tumor started to emerge. Now part of my lung, part of my breath–the source of my life on this earth, needs to be removed in order for me to continue to lead a healthy life.
The message I take from this whole situation is the imperative to take care of not just your body, but of yourSELF. Your SELF is everything associated with the particular life with which you’ve been blessed–mind, body, and soul. Your SELF is the foundation of your life; it’s the vehicle by which you will fulfill your destiny. You only get one of them. I was blessed with a message that I feel the world needs to hear, but no one will ever hear it if I don’t take care of the “delivery vehicle” that is mySELF.
The tumor is a remnant of a past era in my life where I was not taking care of myself, not ensuring that my vehicle was healthy enough to transport my message to its destination. Its removal symbolizes a transition to a new era in which I am becoming more self-aware and a better caretaker of myself. In light of this perspective, I believe more than ever that the world will hear my message, that my story’s gonna be told.
I want to thank from the bottom of my heart all of you who have been with me on my journey thus far. I can’t wait to continue it with y’all upon my recovery.